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| Wednesday, December 03, 2008 |
For the past one and a half week my soul wasn't with me.
It has been flying around and my mind was just day dreaming all the way.
My heart and mind wasn't in the project room,
I miss working,
cause the fun & laughter there make me feel carefree & comfy.
Perhaps, It's a place that I called home.
And I've been avoiding staying out late.
Preferred going home straight after school.
Cause everyday I've been feeling lethargic,
and my bed is my companion for now.
Final Year Project is driving me crazy.
It's a waste of time.
Cause basically everyday I've been staying inside doing nothing.
I admit I've a robot to program on.
But I have no feelings for it.
Cause I tried dealing with it but it just didn't go the way I commended.
And with the time spend inside the fish tanks,
I can actually earn more money for my allowance.
Cause ever since FYP started,
I can only work during weekends.
And the amount earned per month can merely support my basic essentials.
I screwed up my interview for British Airline yesterday.
I wanted to back out when I reached the lobby,
cause I know I'll make a fool out of myself when It comes to Chinese.
And I really did.
I was given a English passage on Queen Victoria's reign and a Chinese passage on economy.
I got a little nervous so I read the English passage like a bullet train.
After glancing through the Chinese passage,
I just admit the truth to the panel that my Chinese ain't good.
She asked me to give it a try.
I stared blankly at those bunch of unfamiliar words,
read the first two words and I didn't know how to continue.
She explained to me that they're looking for cabin crews with fluent mandarin
as their route are mainly to china and etc.
I apologized for taking up her time, she gave me a warm smile and a hand shake.
For a moment, I just feel the world's crumbling down on me.
I failed auto cad for I-don't-know-what-reason.
Which cause me to drop a complimentary module to repeat it.
So I started my FYP later then those normal students by a month.
And my attachment got delayed till next year march.
Which means I'll only graduate after June.
So from January till march I'm gonna be free,
dumbly waiting for attachment to start.
Which is a waste of time.
And recently I've been having flash backs,
walking down memory lanes.
So many mixed feelings came rushing by.
Perhaps I need some time alone,
Or maybe someone to enlighten me.
It's time for me to wake up from my dreams,
stop whining about FYP and start touching up on my project.
Michelle,
Everything will be fine.
Tomorrow will be a better day.
It will be . . .
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